My health dictated that I spend a short time in hospital. The medication being used for my irregular heart beat was strengthened. The side effects of this strengthening was horrendous. Felt I had visited hell. I found myself in a place without God. It was horrible. If this is what hell is like without God I don’t want to be here? I wanted to escape the torment. Suicide entered my mind as an escape route. I was appalled that I should entertain such a thought. Never in my life had I been in such a position or with such thoughts. Eventually I was given a medication to combat the anxiety and darkness.
It was my Heavenly Father that cared for me. He performed miracles through the loving care of my family. Bruce was not only my husband but my prayer warrior. I listened to many YouTube messages namely from the Andrew Wommack Ministries. Finally, the medication was changed. I found my right mind again. I see my friends and neighbours in a different light. I want them to know my Father God. I want them to know that he loves them so much. I do not want them to spend Eternity in a place without Him.
Threading through all this was the need to consider my Advanced Care Plan two thousand my powers of Attorneys were looked at, even checked out my will to see if it said all I wanted it to say.
You may not be aware that God checked out his Will and Testament two thousand years ago. He could see that I and the rest of humanity simply could not measure up to His standard no matter how hard we tried.
My Father made a new Will and Testament by sending his beloved Son Jesus as a babe and who then offered himself on the cross in place of animals once and for all people including me and you.
Jesus the perfect Son fulfilled every law of the Father’s original Will. Jesus the perfect sacrifice took our sins and sicknesses into himself and when we acknowledge Jesus and ask him to save us from ourselves and our sin, he then pours himself into us and we are made like him, as perfect as he is.
We have a new spirit, a new life, a new heart. By accepting Jesus as our sacrifice instead of lambs and animals, we are accepting the Fathers new will and Testament. We live in the light, the love and fellowship of The Father for Eternity.
We can read about the Father’s new Will in detail in the book of Hebrew, New Testament and why he scrapped the old Will with its myriad laws of do’s and don’ts and why Jesus has carried the whole load of our failures in not meeting the requirements of the old Will written in the Ten Commandments.
I’d like to close by urging the reader to consider Christ as a perfect man who came to usher in a new age, an age of love and freedom from depression, sorrow and bondage and ignorance. I wish I could warn people of what it is like to be in a place without God. The closing words of Hebrews Chapter 8: 11 LB has this to say, “God speaks of these new promises, of this new agreement as taking the place of the old one; for the old one is out of date now and has been put aside forever.’ I pray you will seek the Christ, you will believe him and live in the love and favour of my Heavenly Father.